Category Archives: Journey through the loss of Bernadette

Hindsight is 20/20

By Patti Dansereau — Jul 24, 2015 12:23pm I’ve heard the expression hindsight is 20/20 but it wasn’t until yesterday that I truly understood the saying.  It hit me when Marc and I were talking about Bernadette’s illness and how I can’t seem to let go of the idea that I should have done somethingContinue reading “Hindsight is 20/20”

Mom’s Night Out

By Patti Dansereau — Jul 22, 2015 3:44am When the literature from Compassionate Friends came a couple weeks ago, I read (or maybe saw on the video on the website) that ‘you’ll never be the same again’.  At the time I remember wondering what they meant by that.  How will we never be the same?  OverContinue reading “Mom’s Night Out”

Not a good idea to break rule #1

By Patti Dansereau — Jul 6, 2015 2:28am Rule #1:  Do not put myself in the position of being overtired.   Rule #2  Never break rule #1.  As a general rule, breaking rule #1 is usually a direct result of the need of one of the children, mostly Zoe, trumping my need for sleep.  Well last nightContinue reading “Not a good idea to break rule #1”

Another stick!

By Patti Dansereau — Jul 3, 2015 2:19am From everything I’ve read in different books or articles about grieving and getting through the ‘special days’, Canada Day is not generally mentioned – if at all – but for us yesterday was a tough day.   Catherine and Bernadette had shared on more than one occasion that CanadaContinue reading “Another stick!”

Jairus’s daughter

By Patti Dansereau — Jun 29, 2015 6:27pm Yesterday at Mass the Gospel reading was the raising of Jairus’ daughter.  I confess that I had a hard time with holding it all together and not delving into my usual questioning of God as to why.  But during Father’s homily I didn’t succeed and I cried out and askContinue reading “Jairus’s daughter”

Emotionally difficult days…..

By Patti Dansereau — Jun 25, 2015 3:02am Saturday was a rather usual then unusual day for us.  Marc was at the beach early making a sandcastle, Zoe was up really early for Zoe, Catherine woke up not feeling all that great and I was fighting a brutal headache all day.   An early night was called for butContinue reading “Emotionally difficult days…..”

Company and some breakthroughs

By Patti Dansereau — Jun 18, 2015 12:05pm For the past six days Mom and Dad have been here and it’s interesting how it’s been a break from my grief in a way.  Normally I’m very much alone and have too much time to just think about everything and that usually brings on tears.  But with two other adults in theContinue reading “Company and some breakthroughs”

What exactly is a “First time…..”

By Patti Dansereau — Jun 9, 2015 3:39pm The phrase ‘first time…” can be a little deceiving I think.  When mentioned here it is the furthest thing from a sentimental feeling!   As I go through many ‘first time….’ experiences, however big or small, I’ve started to notice a pattern that I didn’t expect.   The first time experience isn’t onlyContinue reading “What exactly is a “First time…..””